i will blog today
anxious. about many things but mostly being an imperfect being who says things i dont mean or has gotten things wrong in the past.
i am looking for new clients. new expectations and new relationships are scary. but not having money is scarier.
this weekend in a rush i made myself a little polymer clay bull. he's white with a little blue and white woven bridle and a metal star charm. maybe 2 inches long. going to keep him in my pocket. maybe he will remind me destruction is a part of life.
everything bad that could happen has the same chance of happening whether i worry about it or not.