good boy this week
i did a good job today: i ordered a new special i thought i would like at the tea shop, and when i didn't like it i put it in the bus bin and i bought myself something a knew i would like. and i only felt a little guilty about it.
hell for me is being expected to pick something from a restaurant menu and trying to weigh price vs what i like vs what is getting my most "value" from a meal ie meat that i dont eat often or a type of food i can't cook myself. its my most chidi goodplace my ocd ever is.
hot tip i have my apartment color coordinated. not obsessively, but it actually helps me make choices when i do have multiple colors of a thing to pick from. when i have the opportunity, most things in my apartment are royal blue, sky blue, sage green, dark red, and yellow! and for others that might feel stressful and controlling, but it removes a lot of unnecessarily stressful decisions for me.
oh i also did a good and said no to a job :) slowly improving on my ambitious to a fault need to accept every opportunity that comes my way even if it would ruin my life.