being a good boy and taking a break
i have been told to take a break and so i am going to try
i finally messaged a friend who i have been anxious about not talking to for years. literally haven't talked since christmas because im convinced he hates me. i got one response. still not convinced we're ok but at least im trying. i know its really unlikely that its anything more than awkwardness after not talking for a while, and anxiety on both sides, but i really want to feel like we're good.
but i am going to try to do less right now because just doing a lot of things is making me overwhelmed. unfortunately right after that my friends decided to move and let us know with less than a weeks notice, so caught between finally resting to avoid another breakdown and feeling like a good friend.
good news it i might have new work :)
and as much as i have been kinda anxious about it, enjoying coding again. not like real anxious, just hyperfixated which makes me want to constantly be working on it, and feel like i have so much that i want to do.
i want to share all my weird little musicals with you all :] i love finding more theater fans on here.